Ch-ch-ch-chaaanges!

Oh my! I haven’t blogged in quite some time. It’s not that I haven’t forgotten about it, it’s just that I’m not that interesting. I’m going through a transition period where things have been difficult and I’m in denial about the reality of what is actually my life. I’m still stuck in my glory days of my early twenties when things were crazy, fun, and carefree. The reality is now I am in my late twenties and life is not so easy and carefree. Financial hardship, “careers”, bills, and laziness have come into play. I feel I don’t have enough time, energy, or money to enjoy all the little things in life that used to make me so happy. I don’t like that. So I’m going to change that. I suppose I have embarked on a journey of “finding myself” again.

For starters, and trust me this was not my ideal choice, I’ve moved home with my family. I say family instead of parents because I have three other siblings living there too. It was something I had to do to get myself back on track financially. I hate to say, and I think Cyndi Lauper said it best when she said “money changes everything”. It really does. I hate money. I wish it wasn’t so, but in ways I do actually believe that it buys happiness. I mean, deep down it’s more than that, but think about how many people are depressed and anxiety stricken because they can’t pay their bills. What about homeless people on the street? When they get money they are so happy. How many times did I have to stay home in the past year and a half because I didn’t have money? It made me feel so pathetic and worthless. *sigh* This is why I hate money. I don’t need to be rich, I just want to be financially comfortable. I want to be able to go out with my friends and have a good time and not worrying that I’m going to overdraw my account. Or have a credit card balance that can save me in case of an emergency. To go on vacation…the list goes on.

I’ve also thrown myself into my workouts. I feel better when I’m healthier and I’ve really been slacking. I started out last year great and then tapered off. I don’t want to go into another year with my fitness routine falling to the wayside. I’ve been eating right and working hard and I want to make it part of my everyday life. It’s been easier making these changes since I laid down the ground work pretty well last year. This year I just need to stick with it!

I’m still trying to find my niche in the world and what I should be doing with my life. I consider going back to school to become a Registered Dietitian. I feel with my celiac and “healthy lifestyle”, I definitely have an interest. It’s the nitty-gritty of the program that leaves me questionable – the chemistry aspects. I was never very good at math or science, so I’m not sure if I would understand much of the coursework. As I said, I go back and forth. I guess we’ll just see what I decide. I would still rather open up a gluten-free boutique, but small business ownership scares me too. Ugh…

I don't mean to sound like such a Debbie Downer...my new and improved blogs are coming soon. Promise!

Til next time!